Why You'd Want To Live Here ?

On the way home I rolled down the windows as I hit the 405, with a lump in my throat and tears forming slowly but surely it really hit me. I missed you, and i wasn't but maybe 15mins away from you. I think it is safe to say, these last two days have been a roller coaster ride to say the least. The mixed emotions, presents being unwrapped, hearts flutter and  fill until it seems they might burst. I felt all these things this week, and i wouldn't take any of them back. The short time we spent together was wonderful in every aspect, confusing as it is I know that our love still lingers and is still alive. When the time is right we will find our place again. I have thought intensely about our options, and I am just going to let this take its course. I love you with every ounce of my soul, and when your near I feel as if my feet will be lifted off the ground. The lump in my throat has subsided and I feel comfortable in the thought that you know I care for you very strongly. Your love will always live within me, and I hope your heart has a special place for my love. I will forever be grateful to have you in my life.

With A Little Help From My Friends

About seven months ago, I was in a horrible place. Stuck on the couch with depression and very unhappy with the life I was living . I didn't see the light at the end of the tunnel, I was really hopeless, In my mind I had lost everything that really mattered to me. Kelly had left and I had to face myself for the first time in a very long time. See I had become something I told myself I would never become, but unfortunately it caught up with me and I had to face the facts. I can tell you today is a different story entirely, I have found a new purpose for myself. For the first time in my life I feel alive, everything is a new experience and I enjoy every second of my day. When I was in that depressive state, I remember listening to this band everyday it seemed. I could really identify with the lead singers lyrics. So for what it's worth , these guys really helped me out when things seemed to be at there worse. Anyone who is in the down in outs, trust me if you find that certain something that can make you happy, run with it and never let it go. It took me along time to see what I was doing to myself and others, and I can say now things have gotten a 100% better. I am just grateful to be alive today and that's enough for me.

Protege Moi

Protect Me. I feel like we were once french lovers in a former live, you got hurt and I lied and we both lived in apathy for along time until our souls met once again in a different world far from here. I think about that quiet a bit actually, that we knew each other from another life. Our souls have been trying for years to be together, but something always seems to be in the way. I want to move that blockade from your heart, and travel to the end of time to hold you close to me once more . I know you think that we were nothing but a lie, but underneath all those lies, there was always something that was real. I thought about what you said to me. You said you don't know who I am, but I know now. I know who I am. I am not a drunk, i am not a liar, all of those are dead. Now all that's left is the man that loves you.

Will You Still Love Me In December

Wow, today couldn't get any better. feeling a sense of love I haven't felt in years. The love of being alive today and grateful of every step I take in life. Woke up with a skip in my step today, due to the fact I had a great time last night at the David Bazan show. He truly is an amazing man, and has really helped me out in my recovery thus. I thought about you at the concert, thinking to myself how much you would have enjoyed it. Seeing other couples embracing each other while he played was a beautiful thing to see. I just wish I had your near to do the same.my heart aches some days when I can't have that feeling of being close to you, truly your warmth and love is missed. I just wanted to say that these things are still in reach in my eyes, it's just that first step that is scary. Today was a great day and things are getting better everyday, just needed to say that out loud.

She Found Him With His Head In A Jar...

For the longest time I have been a reckless individual, weather it was with your love or our plans the next day, one thing always came between you and I. I think about this constantly, the pain and torment I must have put you through, and for what to numb my heart and soul from feeling every inch of your embrace. My heart is full this time, and I am not hiding from my self anymore. I have caused too much pain and anguish over this issue of mine. I have always taken the easy way out my whole life. I try not to follow through with my life goals, even though I know I am very capable of them, and I want to see them through it's just this wall in front of me I can't see past. I have laid this all to rest, I am almost seven months sober, and I have put together plans to finish my schooling. I don't want to be that guy anymore who treats others like a door mat, I want to be liked once more in your eyes. I want to be seen as the person I was intended to be. I am trying my very hardest not to push or pull at your strings, I already feel like I am lost in this tangled web I have wove. I want to make peace between us, and find some stability in our lives.Our love has been lost in the rough and I can see this tearing you apart at times. I can do as I see fit here, and grow and hope you see some change in me someday. I wish things were different , but at the same time this needed to happen for me to understand exactly what I was doing to you and my self. Try and understand my intentions for us are as pure as can be, I really miss my best friend.

Building Better Bridges

I woke this morning with a jump in this step of mine. As i made my way to the heated wall where the sun had been beating down all day, i listened to the bee's swarm the flowers as they made love with them. i realized that when i think this journey might be over, it has just begun. it takes some of us longer to get to our destination, this you might want to take into consideration. So as i am building these bridges to your heart, take into consideration this construction doesn't go up over night. I will work long hours until the night, so i may further my progress to you. This life is beautiful and so lovely, lets share it together hand in hand. These are things i build my bridge for, and I feel home isn't as far as you think .

Trust :Confident Expectation Of Something; HOPE.

I don't know how you feel, I never will know the extent of what I did to you, i hurt you very badly, this I know. I can't change the past , i don't want to forget the past, nor wish the shut the door on it, I must keep it ajar ed to remind me where I must never go again. Things are changing daily, and my views on how this might work someday are Strong. The thing is I think very fondly of you and I, I am willing to work on us. I love you and it's hard not to feel the way I do about you. What I am offering you is a living amends, to better not only my life but both of ours. Love is hard weather it is agreed upon or not. I never wanted to to the things I did, it's hard to see through all of my smoke. I hear you when ever we talk, I see the pain in your eyes. I have to life with the things I have done, I can only move forward on at this point. Look in side your self and ask yourself can we fix this ? I will be here for you when ever you need me , through thick and thin , I will always be here for you. I love you and simply can't just give up on you. On a lighter note I found this song today it reminded me of you. <3

Do Swans Die Of Broken Hearts ?

I love with feeling of security and serenity , sometimes I wish i could just bottle it up and send it your way! I have done a lot of growing in the last couple months, I sometime catch my self in the mirror not knowing the man in front of me. It's a scary concept to think of creating a new person, throwing out all of your old ideas and traits so you may better your life and the lives of others. You never realize the damage you cause until your fully ready to commit your self over. I am in the process of damage control at the moment, and like many who have came before me, I know I have a long way to go. This new journey I have embarked on doesn't have a destination, it's a never ending road to a life of happiness. I like road trips , and I have just packed my car and I am looking for a passenger! I'd like to think that one day we will be able to travel the world together sharing the intense beauty of this world. I know your gyps soul can't sit still, and my love for you will follow you where ever you choose to be. Taking this process one day at a time is key, and as words are spoken over time, our hearts grow stronger everyday. <3

She Opened My Eyes.....

Today was another day in the pits of the daily routine. I found my self gazing into the sun as it set today, only to find out you were doing the same. It's nice to have a certain someone in your life to allow you to appreciate the smaller things that life gives you. I find my situation as it stands now with being sober has led to believe anything is possible. How bad do you want it ? Do you want it? How long will it take? Those things aren't as important as what is happening right in front of you. Does it scare you when your heart gets in the way?  I can only tell you that things change, people change and situations get better if you let them. Time is only a foot in the grave in my opinion,  I also have No right to say that. I can say how ever I am forever grateful to have what I have today. I really like the place I am right now, and I hope it only gets better from here on. Be present and remember when you think you have had enough and you can't handle it , breathe and she will open your eyes. 

Kiss OFF !

I hope you know this will go down on your permit record! You kinda woke me up this morning , but it's fine because it was your voice I woke up with . I wish I could really wake up next to you, but that's another story. Today I am feeling the vibe, a really good mood has swept over me. I hear from what you are trying to get across that being sad and such isn't very attractive, so I am trying something different. I know that the choice you made is the right one, things will get better in time, and you will feel a great relieve of stress gone when it's all said and done. It's hard to make decisions like that, and your such a nice person you are always thinking of everyone else around you. You need to do this for you, and you will find that in time things will be dramatically better.  I love you kiddo and we are all working here, maybe when things slow down a bit we can get together and share a thing or two ~ <3

Your Ghost Still Lingers

Sometimes I wake up and roll over and I can feel you next to me. It's weird I came across a girl today working at Urban Outfitters who smelled like you . Smiled slightly and thought about how you might sleep with my shirt on. I'd like to think that one day we will share the same bed again. I miss the warmth of our bed, tangled in the sheets, I could have slept all day with you in that bed. Windows open in the summer time, while the neighbors listened to us make love. These are memories I cherish, memories that gets me by in hard times. Things are looking up, today I lead another meeting and I had a lot of insight with my share.  I came to the conclusion that as we work independently, if we want it bad enough things will work out. I believe in my heart and how strong it strives for you. For you to ask me can I see my self just being with you for the rest of my life, I chuckled at that question. Of course are you crazy? I don't think you are but, if you didn't get the memo .... I love you and only you, Kiddo !

Overdue

I had a good talking to last night by the love of my life. It's time to pick up the boot straps and get going on this thing called life. It's so easy for an outside influence to tell you how things should be, but when your in a rut what do you do ? It's hard to break free from certain traits sometimes, it's hard enough to feel the pain of love sober. Sometimes I feel like if we could just work together maybe things wouldn't be so hard. I mean I hear your lonely, and you hear I am lonely, it seems simple right? But I see the scar tissue hasn't began to heal. So I am going to do my best to put a hop in my step today and this day forward. It's hard when all I want to do is hold you tightly and embrace your smell, taste and joy in my life. I've loved you for so long, and nothing can change this place called home in my heart you have managed to make. I love you dearly and think of you every second of my day. I want us to be one again, and these things take time. <3

Thankful For Your Love

Today we reflect on things we are thankful for, shouldn't we do this everyday ? I do for the most part it's part of my daily routine. I wake up thinking of you and how thankful I have had the pleasure of being by your side. I think of all the things we have done together, where we have been, what we saw, when we were together. I am so very thankful for that, I feel like we could do so much more together, but only time will tell. I am thankful for our love , and how you showed me how to live my life . Your the greatest gift anyone could ever have. I love you and enjoy your day , wish I could be there love .

Everything I Once Had....

Today has been one of those in between sleep and awake days for me . Can't seem to get my self together lately. I just want to scream , just to let out some feeling would be nice. I need someone to give me some sort of feeling, I have been pretty lonely and I need some human contact badly. I feel as if nothing really makes sense lately. I am hurt and bruised with many indications of fight  I am slowly losing. I am not happy with where this is going, But really what choice do I have? My words never make it pass those barricades you have place before me. This solider is fallen...........

The Telephone Started Ringing ...Ringing...Ringing....Ringing Off...

I have spent the last couple days thinking about the life of mine and how short we are actually here for. I mean what is the point unless you have someone to share it with. I think about this a lot, seeing how I am trying to mend a broken heart, I sometimes feel like we are wasting time, precious time. All I want to say is that this life we are given is short and I wouldn't want anything more than to spend my every waking second by your side. I know you have a lot of obstacles as you put it to work out, why not let me help you with them? why not allow the feels your heart tells you to ring true. I don't have a problem with my reality construct, as you know my heart is true and honest. It simply needs to be said that I can't bare not loving you the rest of my life. I know you gave me a chance to prove my self to you, and things didn't go as planned. But I have come to the conclusion that everything happens for a reason. I needed to become who I am today so I can be a happy man. I miss you terribly and want nothing more than to wake hand and hand with you until the day I die. Listen to your heart, listen to reason, listen to the butterflies that raise you off your feet when I am near. I love you so very much and I will never give up on this, I will never give up on us. And you are a part of me, you are my home and I am your home. Come back home !

Up With The Sun Rise And Down When The Works Been Done...

I woke up fairly early today like 6:00 am couldn't sleep at all last night, still haven't been to bed it feels. So I woke up this morning and surfed the inter web for some new music. I came across a very lovely singer named Gia Margaret who has covered some really great songs. I came across her cover of Pedro The Lion's The Longer I Lay Here. If  get a chance check out her website http://giamargaret.com/. she was nice enough to send me a copy of her songs, so I have been listening to them all this morning, being put in a good mood first thing this morning was a great way to start the day. She sounds similar to Inara George in my opinion and that's always a plus. So I am putting up two of her songs because I really enjoyed both of them. Cleaning house today, then work till close again. It was nice to hear from you last night, in this month of being thankful, I found my self being very thankful for having a beautiful kind hearted soul like you in my life. Like I said I don't know where I would be without you in my life <3

I Knew You Knew I Liked You...

Today I was in a car thinking of a band and couldn't remember the name of them until it hit me slowly. The Faint miss these guys a lot. A kind of mix between electro and pop, we can call it snyth pop. Anyway I used to really like these guys back in high school. I remember I dated this girl who loved them, and she actually got me into them. Today started off painful, as of yesterday I got some ink at a Tattoo convention, so I am a little sore. I am in a better mood than I have been in , which is always a better sign. I went to a Skinny puppy show, where the guitarist of the faint played a solo gig, it was electro metal and he was so good. I had a chance to meet him after his set, really nice guy and respectful. When I hear these guys I can only think about my friend Morganne and how we used to dance to them at parties together. Anyway life can only go one way from here, and I like that feeling . Today is a good day.

Like I Give Fuck ....

Yeah I said it in the most loving way, of course I am talking about !!! or Chk Chk Chk take it as you like. When ever I hear these guys I am transported back to high school and dancing with my friend Anthony. These guys sure know how to get me in a good mood and get me dancing like it's the old days. I can't say I take ecstasy still and party like I used too, but I can dance like I am . Think high amounts meth and trance music that is played through musical instruments and you have !!!. I think this is exactly what I needed as far as music goes to put me in a better mood. So I thank you for making that possible. Can you feel it intensify ?

Somthing's Will End

I have listening to a lot of music lately that just makes me kinda sad at the end of the day. I really wish I could just find a happy medium something that isn't about things that remind me of certain situations. But really I would say most songs deal with that four letter word we know so well. I have been listening to a lot of Elliot Smith lately, as we all know he has a very depressing story. To stab your self in the heart, to end your life because you didn't want to feel anymore? I always thought that was a bold move on his part, to think he must have felt every living moment before his life gave out. Anyway Elliot Smith's self titled CD has always been a favorite of mine, even though most the songs a sad and melancholy, I still enjoy his story played over my speakers. Things are getting better, I think at least that's what I keep telling my self . I have had alot going on lately and really know one to talk to about it. I feel as if I am in the state between two points and I can't reach my destination. Hopefully I wrote down the directions somewhere. This isn't a cry for help at any measure, I have just felt like I am in a stand still these last couples weeks .

Your Song Lingers On

Today was a very strange day, let me break it down for you. Woke up and got to work a little early so I sat and had a smoke, and there it was. Inara George playing over head, I thought to myself come on really? Why is it that she still lingers where ever I go. So I was a little freaked out by that . I went on my lunch break at 10 today , and someone had left a book sitting on the counter that dealt with love and astronomical signs. I opened it and I found myself on a page that said Gemini and Pisces , I was a little taken back. I spent the rest of my lunch reading up on our signs, pretty interesting stuff. Anyway I don't have a song to go along with today subject, I just had a really strange day. So anyway I will pick a dashboard confessional song, because I am feeling sentimental today.

Is Love An Infection Or Is It A Sick Addiction ?

This is a lyric from today's song, by Rx Bandits . I have always liked this song because it makes you think if we can actually be addicted to love and if so is too much a bad thing. I don't particularly think that it is a bad thing, I think the feel that is incorporated with love is very good actually. I know love releases endorphins and that's a kind of high but, never to the levels of drugs. I have been battling these feels of love for awhile now, apparently it's not time for that in my life right now, so I choose to accept that. But it doesn't change the way I actually feel, I am very distrout and have been thinking of her for days now, can't sleep and it's hard to do much of anything else. Can't help it, I am a hopeless romantic and have too much love to give. Anyway maybe you can help me out by letting me know what you think, disease or addiction ?

Pick Up Your Feet....

Hey guess what it's been awhile, I have been super busy moving into this new house and life has just been a complete fucking mess lately. I have seriously one of the hardest months of my life not only with the move but other things not to be mentioned at this time, but anyway... today is a great day ... and why might you ask? It's six months sober and the first day I have felt happy in a couple weeks so yeah for that. Score one for the team. I have been listening to lots of angry get up and kill music lately, so I wont bore you with that. But I did find a gem the other day by the name of Cryptex. A 17yr old fucking genius in my book, do you like glitch music as much as me ? Well I didn't think so, this kid has got a very talented gift by combining Glitch and really great dance together. Something I my self have been working on for a very long time and I am 24. That is neither here nor there, the point is this guy has a gift and you should check him out. Good to be sober , and deal with life on life's terms today, no longer do I run to a bottle when things go south.

A Man And His Keyboard ...

Once again I am revisiting this man called David Bazan.He has been such a big part of my life lately, and I just can't get enough of him. His Side project called Headphones, a indie synth rock band created back in 2005. It was a nice transition of music from Pedro The Lion to this jam band. When I first heard the CD I fell in love because it kind of reminded me of The Postal Service in a way. I finally got tickets for David's solo performance in December and I just can't wait to see him play.I have dubbed him my favorite song writer, his lyrics hit really close to home, because I am an alcoholic and I have struggled with that my whole life. His lyrics are very inspirational, in the sense that there is always a better way to live in this thing called life. Someday I hope to have some of the skills and confidence to play they way he does and write songs like he does. I have been working on a number of covers of his all this week, so I plan on having the videos up on youtube soon. These last couple weeks have been very stressful, so I haven't had the time to write this blog, but I am trying my hardest.

My Personal Savior...

I can connect with David Bazan on every level ,he is starting to be one of my favorite artist right now in this time in my life. Between his words with god, relationships, love and drinking, i have found my self clinging on every word he sings, or as he says " I can't speak it like I sing it ." I have loved Pedro the lion for many years and The Headphones, and just recently I have been listening to a lot of his of David's solo stuff. David speaks his my mind the way I do, not afraid to lay it out on the table and show his true side for what it's worth. I have come to very difficult turn in my life right now, where I am in a bit of a rut, things have been hunky dory the last couple months but something has happened this last week. I understand I am not in control of people, places or things, but don't we all want to be able to make changes in that department? Anyway I have been listen to David a lot this week, to ease the stress of my life and fill the void of love or the lack of it. I am a hopeless romantic and it's really hard not to care about you when my heart is singing only your name. I feel almost sick with sadness someways  wishing you might just tell me you love me and find your way back into these arms of mine you once called home.Meet me half way please cause it's getting harder for me. Anyway Dec 9th he will be playing close to me so I am going to get tickets here soon, only wish you might come with me and experience the words of a man who is helping me out along the way.

The Beauty Of Her Voice

Imogen Heap is so amazing, I had a chance to see her a couple of years ago, it was seriously a beautiful concert. She had all of these loop stations on station and would loop her voice over an over , making this beautiful melody. She also had this clear grand piano, with a macbook built right into it. She was battling a cold when i saw her, but still sounded amazing. She started making music back in the 90's and released her first album 1998, and she was a part of a band called frou foru for awhile which i really like as well. the other day a friend sent me a link to her new material, and it was really good as always. Her music is crossed between electronic and has a little jazz flare to it. Just love her, and her British accent !

Atmosphere Is A Ten Letter Word

Now I am not one for hip-hop, but I can make some exceptions. I love Atmosphere, Slug the leader, is one of the most cunning lyrical master minds I have had the chance to hear. See what really turns me off to hip hop or rap for that matter is the way they talk about cash money and hoes... Okay whats new? Slug doesn't go there, he  talking about really shit, that makes sense, and furthermore its like his diction is perfect. My friend Anthony and I used to be really in to these guys and memorized the lyrics to God Loves Ugly. I love his beats , they are so unique and raw , I had a chance to see him perform at warped tour when I younger, but I really didn't know who I was seeing at the time, this was before he got popular. anyway if you like good hip-hop that isn't commercial check this out .

A Plan That Works !

The Dismemberment Plan is one of my favorite bands, because I have a really fond memory attached to them. One of my friends got me into the dismemberment plan back when I was in junior high. Anyway I had just started dating the love of my life, and we had spent the whole night together, and most of the morning. Can't tell how much I love this memory, when ever I am having a bad day, I just think about us together and how good things were. Anyway she stayed over until like 3 in the morning and she had to go to work early in the morning, So I devised a plan, anything to get to see her for a couple of minutes and steal a kiss or too. She worked at a vineyard selling wine on the peninsula, it was not that long of a drive but a couple of miles out there. I didn't care, I thought to myself I would cross the ocean for this girl. With butterflies flapping their wings up and down in my stomach, I hopped in the car to drive out there. My mom had just made some fresh tabbouleh, and I stopped at a little market and picked her up a drink. The day couldn't have been a more beautiful day, with sun shining and a cool breeze hitting my skin I made the journey, not even knowing if she was still working or not. I popped in The Dismemberment Plan and began singing so loud ! I was in such a good mood, nothing could bring me down. Finally got there and surprised her with some food and a drink and she was so thrown off, I could tell that she was super surprised and happy to see me. She pulled me into a workout room, and we made out for a couple of minutes, I was on top of the world. I miss her very much and the feeling we once shared, maybe one day we can share it again. On a sad note TDP is no longer a band, which is a bummer because I wish I had more memories associated with them. 

Tone Def ...

Deftones is one of those bands that you grow up with and they never seem to get old. I have been listening to these guys since I was in grade school. I have seen them on many occasions, and also caught Abe's drum stick at a concert. I used to work with this guy named Tony, and his favorite band was Deftones, I mean die heart fan. We used to go to shows together and listen to them at work, that never got old. Chino Moreno is the singer of Deftones and has many side projects, including Teamsleep, Crosses. He has a really unique voices, I have ever heard. He can go from a soft whisper , to a intense squeal.Deftones was formed back in 1988, in Sacramento California. The bassist for Deftones is named Chi, and he was hit by a drunk driver a couple years back and is currently in a coma. I pray him, and the band because that is some sad shit, and he was a really down to earth kind of guy. Anyway I love Deftones and always will.

There Is Nothing Punk About You !

I am of course talking about Daft Punk, the greatest DJ duo I have ever heard in my life. These two really know how to make me dance. I have been a big fan since I was in junior high, these two french men have been making music for a long time, they became popular in 1993 when the release of Homework came out. I remember my first vinyl dust mats said Daft Punk on them, and that was before I even knew who they were. I would have to say that Discovery is my all time favorite album, all of those songs on that album are really classic. I also like the fact these two never show their faces, they play their live shows with robot helmets on, which I think is classic.It's kind of a guessing game, their are some earlier photos of them, but seeing how they never show what they look like, I think it is one of the worlds best selling points. Anyway really love these two, wanted to be them for Halloween this year, but the helmet is like $1,500 dollars, so I think I'll just make one next year.

Snail Mail ?

The Postal Service is one of my favorite nostalgic bands ever. I have way to many memories with this band including some of the best days ever ! I used to listen to Give Up everyday for I would say about a year straight. Ben Gibbard from DCFC and Jimmy Tamborello of Dntel comprise this wonderful band of electro synth pop. I know every word to all of their songs, and own every album and ep . Just to put it out there I am a huge fan of anything Ben Gibbard does.Ben and Jimmy released Give Up in 2003, and the album blew up , every where I went I heard their songs. In 2006 the UPS sent a letter to them asking them to change their name, after negotiations an agreement was met and they played a show for them, god would I have liked to be there for that performance. I was listening to their Phil Colins cover of Against All Odds today and made me think of the things that have been going on in my life right now. I am just really happy to be alive today and have the power and motivation to just do simple things like this blog. Thanks!

Wookie Power

I am of course talking about Baconhead, and side project that includes Ben Hudson from Ebola and Autobee they started this band back in 2009 and have been releasing some really heavy tracks. I love anything Ben does to be honest he is probably my second favorite artist. Baconhead is a cross between video game chip-tunes and at times heavy dubstep. Someday I hope to be as good as Ben at what he does, he seems to find the greatest little tweaks and glitches to add to his songs which make them all worth while. Hopefully I will have enough money in the next couple weeks to pick up their new ep that just dropped, but for now I have rocking wookies to enjoy in the mean time. Not that this has anything to do with music or Baconhead, but I have been sober for five months today and I am pretty damn proud about that !

Closer To God...

Like music that puts you in a good mood Justin Broadwick is your man, now I am a big Godflesh fan, which my friend I keep on mentioning Anthony turned me on too. He actually has Street cleaner on vinyl , which makes me super ass jealous. Everything this guy seems to touch turns to gold , really like his use of ambient metal and melodic melodies. He formed this band Jesu after Godflesh broke up in 2003. He has numerous remixes over the years and seems to have what it takes in my opinion. Just heard that Godflesh might be getting back together to make a new album , today is a good day .... enjoy !

Two Is Enough For Me ....

Last night I wen to go see The Album Leaf in concert, and just managed to catch the opening bands, one of which was named Writer. There are two guys in the band Andy and James Ralph and they of course happen to be brothers. They are a simple duo, but bring a really big rough and loud sound to the stage, it might have been because I was standing directly in front of the speakers ! I had a chance to talk to Andy after the concert, really nice guy, I picked up their 7inch and a shirt to support the band. They are from San Diego, which means I hope to be seeing more of them. I liked them better than The Album Leaf to be honest, they really rocked out. I believe he sang with a tremolo pedal the whole time, I thought it was kinda in genius. Check these guys out support them, sign up to their mailing list and get a free cd !http://writertheband.com/news.php

She Had Me At The First Track...

Lykke Li is an amazing artist, she does something to lyrics that just makes me melt and fall in love all over again. I first heard of her when my friend Joel turned me on to Kleerup and then shortly after burned me a copy of Youth Novels. I really fell in love with the track Wait Until We Bleed, that is on Kleerup's cd, I remember playing that song over and over again. I really connect with the lyrics to that particular song because it is about drinking and loosing something. We drink that fatal drop then then fall apart in parts, this reminds me of the situation I was in not to long ago with someone very dear to me. I fucked up, because I have a drinking problem, but I a, proud to say that I have changed my ways and I am coming up on five months next week! It's hard to think that something like a drink can ruin your life and break the bonds of love . <3 I can only work on this thing called life one day at a time and hope that one day she will have me as her man .

The Greatest Industrial Movement ....

Skinny Puppy is one of those bands that for me started my love for a whole genre of music. I simply Love this band, I have seen them on numerous occasions and plan on seeing them on their next tour which should be pretty soon here! To me their are only two real main members left of Skinny Puppy they are cEvin Key and Nivek Ogre. cEvin does the programming and keys for the band, while Ogre does the vocals and an amazing stage show. I have never seen a live show like a Skinny Puppy Show, it is something truly amazing. I actually saw my favorite artist Otto Von Schirach at a Skinny Puppy show for the first time. Very dark electro industrial music, they are actually known for starting that whole genre in my book, but I think that is a fact. If you ever get a chance to see these guys do so, and be ready for a very strange adventure !

Senseless Mindless Indulgence... You know What I am Talking About !

I really can't believe it has taken me this long to write about these guy, in my top ten favorite bands of all time. I have seen these guys five times in concert, kissed Jimmy Urine and stole part of his shirt once. I have always loved these guys since I was introduced to them back in high school. I have been a die hard fan for years know, love all of MSI's music and their side project The Left Rights which I will be writing about very soon. I actually saw them one devil's night when I had pneumonia which really sucked. MSI is comprised of four individuals Jimmy Urine vocals, Steve Right? guitar, Kitty drums and LynZ bass. Jimmy also does all of the programming for the songs which is my favorite part about the band. Their music doesn't sound like anything out there today, very fasted paced and cracked out electronically. If you don't know about these guys get with the fucking program, and if you ever see them in concert be aware it is going to be one of the best stage shows ever, Jimmy never stops moving .

The Good Kind Of Mob...

I am talking about The Glitch Mob of course, one of my favorite electronic groups. The group is comprised of three very talented individuals such as edIT, Boreta and Ooah, it was a originally a four piece that included Kraddy as well. I have followed these guys for along time now, ever since I got into electronic music. I first heard edIT and them found out her was in the group. They call them selves crowd slayers which I always thought was really cool. I had a chance to see these guys in Santa Cruz California last year with Kelly a couple days before my birthday. We had a really good time, we got down on the floor when they played and danced a lot which was really fun. They put on a great live performance, because they play with touch screen drum sets and sound manipulators. They used to only remix popular club music, but they have really come into their own.Currently they are in the studio making a new album which I am really excited about. Hope to see them again someday.

I Hope Things Work Out ....

Today's blog entry is a wish I have been thinking about for the last couple days now. I have the chance to go see Inara George the lead singer of The Bird And The Bee with a certain someone in November at the Getty. The show is completely free and she is playing with Van Dyke Parks a really famous composer. I told you already how much The Bird And The Bee means to me and her, so I am so nervous for some reason. I am waiting with anticipation so badly for Oct 20th to roll around so I can get tickets because they go fast. I think sharing this concert with her would be such a great experience, seeing how this singer is her favorite all time singer and there really our songs. I just recently found out Inara had a solo project and was so amazed on how good it was, surely she has an amazing voice, but the songs are really beautiful and similar to how I have been feeling lately. Anyway I hope this all works out because it would mean a lot to me, and I feel like we deserve this time together. <3

The Party Monster

Andrew W. K. is a great man, I can't say enough about this guy. Simply because he creates all of his own songs and writes them and they all sound the same ! His first album Get Wet came out in 2001, it wasn't until my friend Tony convinced me that his music was good I gave him a listen too. I mean seriously how can't you love music that is all about partying or killing people ? So I image this music was very popular in college, but who am I to judge.He is also a self help and motivational speaker, I would so go to one of his conferences. He also wrote his own book, basically he can do anything he puts his mind too. I really like his attitude toward life and some day I hope to acquire some of his traits . So get out there and party hard .

The Song That Makes Me Remember The Things I Forgot ....

The truth is I know nothing about the band that I am sharing today. I bet you could see this one coming a mile away huh? Anyway This song is near and dear to me because she used to sing it to me in the car in Washington all the time. Did I ever tell you she has a voice like an angel,? I am just letting you know she is my favorite singer by far. Every time I hear her voice it's like my heart begins to melt and i get all warm and nervous inside. The band I am sharing today is called Hot Club Of Cow town, strange name right ? Any who this song called " Forget Me Nots." This song reminds me of endless days with my true love, when she was in a good mood she would sing this to me, I remember the first time I heard it she told me the story that went along with it. Her mother and her drove from Traverse City Michigan all the way to Anacortes Washington. She sang the song all the way to Anacortes I guess. I would have loved to be there in the car with her, she and I are great car buddies, I really miss that about us. Maybe one of these days I'll show up and bring her some Tabbouleh and sweep her off her feet and take her on a road trip with me . Enjoy this lovely song !

Strange Name....

So I really like this band, but I really hate their new stuff so ill make this kinda brief. Coheed And Cambria is a New York band I guess that started way back in 1995. Claudio Sanchez the lead singer of this operation has the most interesting vocal range. He makes singing high notes for tenors look easy. So after In Keeping Secrets Of The Silent Earth:3 i lost interest in these guys, they were like every other band in my opinion. I never was a die hard fan for these guys but i thought what they were doing at the time was really cool, they also map each album out to be a story. There albums can also be found in comics,so you can see they got too big for their britches.And to top it all off Claudio kicked out the original members of the band so they basically suck now. Anyway if you like high vocals and singing along with catchy tunes,check these guys out !

All Is Full Of Love

Today's blog entry comes from Iceland, Her unique voice can be heard all over the word. Bjork is an angel in my eyes. I don't know her personally but I imagine that is what angels sound like. I have been a big fan of hers since I was very young, I have watched her come into her own over the years. I always appreciate the way she does what she wants electronically and lyrically, she isn't afraid to think outside of the box which is really cool. I have always wanted to see her live, I heard it is a most beautiful experience. Death Cab For Cutie's Front man Ben Gibbard, like to cover her songs and really does it well. Bjork also makes me think of my love. Her lyrics make you think of how important it is to have someone special in your life. I connect on so many different levels with her songs. All Is Full Of Love has to be my favorite song and music video by far, it really makes me look at myself and where I'd love to be someday with YOU. Hopefully you got that, anyway enjoy this amazing video and song . I truly believe this concept, that all is full of love you just need to know where to find it!

The King Of Mash-UP

Greg Gillis or as many of us know him as Girl Talk. This man has made me dance more times then I'd like to say, on top of that I know the words to some pretty stupid rap songs know. All in good play I have learned to appreciate all types of music and Greg showed me that is very possible. I had a chance to go see him in concert once and it was seriously off the chain. He invited all of the audience up on stage with him to dance the night away. I was so sweaty by the end of the night I could hardly stand it. I found myself dancing with complete strangers and bumping and grinding without inhibition. I first heard Girl Talk back in high school, he was an idol of mine for along time actually, I found it very interesting that he was almost sued for his  use of other people music. I believe he is only allowed to use somewhere around 6 to 5 seconds of another artist song if he plans on selling his album. I find this completely fucked in my opinion, because the music he is making is completely different and of his own  style. More power to him and his work in creative commons and mastering the art of mash-up.... kudos. I know a girl who likes to sing Girl Talk, and her friend actually recorded her singing one of his songs without her knowledge, just thought that was kinda funny. Wish I could have been there for that !

Concert Edtion ( The Revolution )

Last night I had the privilege to go see one of my favorite bands The Chariot, let me begin by telling you these guys are fucking crazy. I have never in my life ever seen a more chaotic stage presence in my whole life. I have seen these guys once before when they open up for Poison The Well back in the day, they were crazy that night and even crazier tonight. There was these rafters above the stage that went around the whole room and the guitarist Stephan Harris went up there and began to play his guitar, the lead singer Josh Scogin did the same crawling on the amps and speakers. He started the concert by saying ," This stage is your stage, these songs are your songs, if you know the words sing along, if you don't make up your own." Classic ! I have always loved Josh's vocals from Norma Jean, and The Chariot has their own sound and great fighting style. Between the endless stage jumpers and screaming vocals, I caught the bassist guitar and sang back up vocals with some kids in the crowd. I had one of the best night I have ever had, I think these guys are my favorite band to see live. My friend Bryant and I had a chance to meet the two guitarist and the drummer, very humble people and we learned they will be coming back in November ! You can bet I'll be there front row again !